So yesterday over Skype I finally told the
girl that I have liked for the past 7 months how I felt about her. It was super
awkward, and for the first time in like forever I didn’t know what to say. It
was weird because I typically always know exactly what to say around girls, but
with this particular one I am normally really like awkward. When I am around
her my words always come out really jumbled and stuff. She is really awesome: like she is beautiful.
She is 5’9 with beautiful fair skin, she has long brown hair with, golden
blonde highlights. She is super friendly and has the cutest laugh. She is
really mature, and a super strong Christian. We have been really best friends
for a while, and have gotten like super close in the last month… I have been super scared to tell her how I
feel because I really valued our friendship and didn’t want to mess it up or
hinder it if she didn’t feel the same way… I tried to suppress them for the
sake of our friendship, but they wouldn’t go away, instead they just grew and got
more powerful each time I saw her… Yesterday I just couldn’t hold them in
anymore and finally told her. Any way so our convo went something like this:
Me: Yea hey ____
can I be real with you for a minute
The Girl: Sure, what’s
up
Awkward Silence
Me: Umm, never
mind, I will just talk to you about it later…
The Girl: You
sure
Me: Yea
Change of Subject, we
come back to this about 10 min later
Me: You know
what, _____ I have wanted to say this to you since I first met you in
September, You’re beautiful, like you’re stunning. But like I’m not just
talking about your looks, like your beautiful on the inside and out. Like I’m
sure you hear this all the time, but I just wanted to let you know that’s how I
feel about you. Like, on the real I have like you since the minute I met you at
that picnic in September, I just have been to scared of rejection to tell you
how I feel.
The Girl: Yea,
um…. That’s lame!!
Me: umm uhh
sorry, darn curse my awkwardness!!!
The Girl: No, no,
no !!! Not you, what you said was sweet, I was talking about what I what I was
about to say…. I was thinking out loud!!! Like I’m super nervous right now…like
I’m shaking, and my heart is racing… I feel the same way… Like your awesome,
and every time I see you, you surprise me with something new about you… Like we
have a lot in common, and that we are on the same page spiritually in a lot of
ways….
Me: Umm could you
hold on for a second, I have to go get something…
I mute the mike and
turn off the cam and just spend like 30 seconds screaming and shouting and
dancing with joy!!.
Me: I’m back,
sorry, any way what were you saying….
The call drops out,
I call her back
Me: Ugh stupid
skype….
The Girl : I know
right!!
At this point my
little sister kinda ruins it all by coming downstairs and messing with me on
cam, but it made the girl laugh so it was ok. My sister says my mom wants me
and goes back upstairs
Me: So yea, I
gotta go, sorry…. I am glad we feel the same way about each other… I guess we
will have to continue this conversation tomorrow when we see each other…
The Girl: Yea, we
will, because there is a lot of stuff that I have to talk to you about!!
Me: Yea, me too.
Before I go though, I have one major question…. What do your parents feel about
dating??
The Girl: I
really don’t know, when I was dating James, they kinda got used to it, but I
never actually met him, so yea that was kinda different than me and you…. Since
you’re like my best friend and all… I will have to ask them.. What about your
parents?
Me: Well I really don’t know, like they were
against me dating Mariah, but I did it anyway…. This time though I am going to
have to spend a lot of time praying and stuff, because I don’t want our
relationship to be like my last one. Without my parents blessing things didn’t
go so well…. Plus I wanna honor my parents and all, so yea I really hope they
are ok with it…. I am gonna have to figure out how to ask them, and hopefully I
will ask them at the right time…. So yea I really have to go
The Girl: Ok,
well we both definitely have a lot to think about
Me: Yea, well see
you tomorrow
The Girl: Yea,
bye
Me: bye
The Girl: See you
tomorrow
Me: See you tomorrow
2012 Adam Edwards ©
2012 Adam Edwards ©
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