Hate

Hate

Hate is a powerful thing. Hate degrades and corrupts.

Ultimately if hate is not diffused it will explode like a bomb, destroying the hater and injuring everyone around him.

Hate typically hurts the person who is hating and those who love him far more than it hurts the person who is being hated upon.

 Hate can drive you to do things that you would never imagine, it can and will turn you into a monster, devoid of all reason.

Hate, however can be controlled with much effort. It can be used as the fuel for many great things. It can help you accomplish your goals.

I view hate as a large vicious animal, if it is tamed and trained, it can be your best friend; it can protect you, it can even be trained to do helpful things for you.

 However it is still a wild animal at heart, and can attack you at the slightest provocation, or even unprovoked at any time.

If you don’t control your hate, it will control you.

2012 Adam Edwards ©

Lies

Lies,life is built around them,the world revolves around them. They are the foundation for which many relationships are based, chances are in fact that someone is lying to you right now. Lies corrode trust, and without trust, there is no relationship. Since everybody lies why should you trust? since you have lied, Why should you trust yourself?
2012 Adam Edwards ©

Best Day In A While!!

 So yesterday over Skype I finally told the girl that I have liked for the past 7 months how I felt about her. It was super awkward, and for the first time in like forever I didn’t know what to say. It was weird because I typically always know exactly what to say around girls, but with this particular one I am normally really like awkward. When I am around her my words always come out really jumbled and stuff.  She is really awesome: like she is beautiful. She is 5’9 with beautiful fair skin, she has long brown hair with, golden blonde highlights. She is super friendly and has the cutest laugh. She is really mature, and a super strong Christian. We have been really best friends for a while, and have gotten like super close in the last month…  I have been super scared to tell her how I feel because I really valued our friendship and didn’t want to mess it up or hinder it if she didn’t feel the same way… I tried to suppress them for the sake of our friendship, but they wouldn’t go away, instead they just grew and got more powerful each time I saw her… Yesterday I just couldn’t hold them in anymore and finally told her. Any way so our convo went something like this:

Me: Yea hey ____ can I be real with you for a minute

The Girl: Sure, what’s up

Awkward Silence

Me: Umm, never mind, I will just talk to you about it later…

The Girl: You sure

Me: Yea

Change of Subject, we come back to this about 10 min later

Me: You know what, _____ I have wanted to say this to you since I first met you in September, You’re beautiful, like you’re stunning. But like I’m not just talking about your looks, like your beautiful on the inside and out. Like I’m sure you hear this all the time, but I just wanted to let you know that’s how I feel about you. Like, on the real I have like you since the minute I met you at that picnic in September, I just have been to scared of rejection to tell you how I feel. 

The Girl: Yea, um…. That’s lame!!

Me: umm uhh sorry, darn curse my awkwardness!!!

The Girl: No, no, no !!! Not you, what you said was sweet, I was talking about what I what I was about to say…. I was thinking out loud!!! Like I’m super nervous right now…like I’m shaking, and my heart is racing… I feel the same way… Like your awesome, and every time I see you, you surprise me with something new about you… Like we have a lot in common, and that we are on the same page spiritually in a lot of ways….

Me: Umm could you hold on for a second, I have to go get something…

I mute the mike and turn off the cam and just spend like 30 seconds screaming and shouting and dancing with joy!!.

Me: I’m back, sorry, any way what were you saying….

The call drops out, I call her back

Me: Ugh stupid skype….

The Girl : I know right!!

At this point my little sister kinda ruins it all by coming downstairs and messing with me on cam, but it made the girl laugh so it was ok. My sister says my mom wants me and goes back upstairs

Me: So yea, I gotta go, sorry…. I am glad we feel the same way about each other… I guess we will have to continue this conversation tomorrow when we see each other…

The Girl: Yea, we will, because there is a lot of stuff that I have to talk to you about!!

Me: Yea, me too. Before I go though, I have one major question…. What do your parents feel about dating??

The Girl: I really don’t know, when I was dating James, they kinda got used to it, but I never actually met him, so yea that was kinda different than me and you…. Since you’re like my best friend and all… I will have to ask them.. What about your parents?

Me:  Well I really don’t know, like they were against me dating Mariah, but I did it anyway…. This time though I am going to have to spend a lot of time praying and stuff, because I don’t want our relationship to be like my last one. Without my parents blessing things didn’t go so well…. Plus I wanna honor my parents and all, so yea I really hope they are ok with it…. I am gonna have to figure out how to ask them, and hopefully I will ask them at the right time…. So yea I really have to go

The Girl: Ok, well we both definitely have a lot to think about

Me: Yea, well see you tomorrow

The Girl: Yea, bye

Me: bye

The Girl: See you tomorrow

Me: See you tomorrow
2012 Adam Edwards ©

My Night At The Statehouse

 So I’m in the Prince George’s County Youth Commissioners. They are a group of teenagers that were specially picked for their community service, grades and other criteria. We represent each public high school, and each large private high school. We weigh in on things in PG County that affect teenagers like us. So like last week, on March 5, 2011, we went as a group to the Maryland Statehouse. I really did not know what to expect, I figured that we would go, get a tour of the statehouse, eat dinner somewhere and leave. Boy was I wrong… lol. So I got to the Prince George’s County Administration Building ( where we were meeting to get taken there)at 4:30pm, outside the building was a “The Bus” bus, I ignored it, figuring it was just picking  up passengers. So I went inside the building and found Mrs. Harris, the head of the Youth Commissioners and we went downstairs to get on the bus, it actually was “The Bus” bus! I was shocked; the county had set aside a special metro bus just for us! We got on and waited for about 15 minutes for the rest of the people to arrive, and then we were off. We got to the Statehouse at about 5:45, when we got there we went inside a smaller building, that state committees met in, I forget what it was called, we watched about a 10 minute video about Maryland’s ____ branch and how it worked. I was thinking in my head “Ok yea it’s definitely just a typical tour.” After we finished our video we met our tour guide and she walked us to the main building of the statehouse. I had absolutely no idea that there were miles of underground tunnels under the Maryland Statehouse, so we walked through those tunnels to something called the Bill Room. It was where every bill that had ever been passed since the beginning of American History was stored, the best part about it, you could have a copy of any bill that had ever been passed for free. I was going to ask for one, but we didn’t have time. From there we went upstairs to the main building where the House of Representatives room and the Senate room were. We went inside both since they weren’t in session at the moment. From there we went to the old House of Representative and senate room (The ones that were used during the Revolutionary and Civil War). They were being renovated. By this time it was probably about 6:45, so we went to get something to eat, the tour guide and Mrs. Harris just told us to follow them, so we did. Little did we know what was about to happen. They took us to a large reception that was going on, with about 400 people in attendance, most of them people in politics, most of the PG county commissioners were there, as was the governor of Prince George’s county, and many senators and representatives. We were led to the front, where Senator Benson introduced us to the group, and personally thanked each of us for our service. Afterwards we ate dinner and traveled back to the Senate Room, so we could watch a session. About 10 minutes into the session a freakishly large, super buff security woman, came over to where we were sitting and told us to come with her, we thought we had done something or were in trouble, but she took us outside, and told us that we were being recognized by the senate, and that the President of the Senate was going to introduce us, She took us out onto the Senate floor, where the President of the Senate introduced us, the Senators gave us a round of applause and then the media took a bunch of pictures…. Idk if we are gonna be on the news or in any papers. Then we were taken back to our seats, where we sat back down and watched the rest of the session. The session that we were in they were discussing 2 bills. The first one was a normal one. It was a bill that would raise the pay of Maryland’s judges by 7 percent over a period of 3 years, in order to raise the pay of Maryland’s judges (who were already making 6 figures), they were going to lower the pay of Maryland’s teachers. The Senate voted against that bill. The second one however was super weird. It was a bill that if passed, would allow people who had died to be posthumously harvested for their sperm and eggs. I think that they were also talking about whether or not the children created by the harvested eggs and sperm should get any of the dead parents will. We left before they finished debating that bill, so idk if it got passed.  Well anyway that was my awesome night at the Maryland Statehouse.
2012 Adam Edwards ©

My Conversation With An Atheist

So I am a Christian who spends a lot of time on this site called Reddit. Yesterday I asked a question on it asking how many people on the site were Christians... I got over 100 responses from more than 100 people.... A lot of them were very hateful towards Christianity..... So here is something that I posted on Christianity, answering one guys challenge..... Do you guys think I was right, or came across to strong?  Lol I think I might have gotten kinda carried away!!!


Here it is.....
He said: I'm an atheist here and I won't upvote you but I'm not going to downvote you I have no reason to do either. The reason people "bash" on Christianity is because they only hear about the people that take they're beliefs to a whole other level. Also because most Christians are ignorant and all they do is thank god for everything. It really pisses me off when someone tells me, "I have a gift from god" because they see me do something I'm really talented at. Because I didn't just practice for years to be good at something to be told I have a gift from god. I would rather be congratulated for my hard work. Christians think homosexuality is a sin and gay people are "abominations" so why should I respect any Christian? When they don't believe in equality of everyone. They don't welcome everyone into their way of worship. Christians also deny science. Science proves things and religion doesn't, you have no proof that any of the things in the bible happened. Its a fucking book... A book isn't enough proof that these things happened. The bible contradicts itself in many ways and then people use the, "that's the old testament, not relevant." Well that's what Christianity was before the new testament so why isn't it relevant? I'm not going to debate with anyone here simply because if I want to do that I would go to /r/atheism and because arguing over religion with a Christian is like playing chess with a pidgeon. You can explain the rules perfectly and play the game well, but the pidgeon will always just knock the pieces over, shit on the board, and fly away claiming victory. Because they don't use a logical way of thinking. If you're a Christian think about this right now... If god told you to kill me because I'm atheist, would you? If you say no than why are you a believer in an evil god? I'm not trying to spread Atheism, but I'm trying to get you to see what you believe in and if its something you really want to believe in.

I said :So yea thanks for not downvoting me, because I get a lot of that...lol,

 Now I'm just gonna refute some of your points right quick if you don't mind... Soo yea here we go....

*  Christians aren't ignorant. Now I will admit that there are some ignorant people that are Christians, but that doesn't mean that Christianity cannot be believed because of that. I know for a fact that there are many ignorant atheists. There are ignorant people in every religion, or lack of religion. For example a few Christians alive today that are geniuses are :

1. Ken Ham, a famous creationist who has dedicated his life to proving the truth of creationism, he has a bachelors in applied sciences, a P.H.D. in literature and writing, a Doctor of Divinity, and a Doctor of Letters.

2. Ravi Zacharias, a famous apologetic who has dedicated his life to encouraging Christians to think about Christianity for themselves instead of just blindly listening to their pastor, who is human just like them. He has a Doctor of Divinity, and a P.H.D. in Law.  He has been a visiting scholar at Cambridge University,  studying moralist philosophers and literature of the Romantic era. Written over 20 books and is currently a Senior Research Fellow at Oxford University

*  Homosexuality is a sin, however I think that you are referring to the Christians who are hateful and spiteful of homosexuals, and believe that homosexuality is a dreadful disease that must be purged from the earth or else God will come back and kill us all!!!! Lol that is what some Christians believe, however that is not what all Christians believe… Many Christians, like me believe that homosexuality is a sin, however it is no more wrong than me stealing an candy bar, or having sex with someone I'm not married too. It says in the bible in Matthew 7:5 to "take the log out of your own eye before you try to take the speck out of your brothers. I interpret that as meaning that since I have my own sins that I commit on the regular, how can I justify trying to judge another person as being a bad person, or that I am better than them because they have done something.  I have many homosexual friends who know that I am a Christian, and I don't try to change who they are, I simply love them regardless. I believe that God will judge them in heaven for being a homosexual, just like he will judge me for stealing, or for having sex outside of marriage, or the thousands of other sins that I have committed. I try to live my life according to Matthew 7:2-5 which says For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. I think that verse is pretty self explanatory. I think that this belief about homosexuality that I have just covered is the belief that many Christians uphold.

*  Christians don't deny science, lol that is absolutely absurd…. The only science that we do not accept is the theory of evolution. We believe that the universe was created in 7 days, however that is a theory too. Neither one have been proven, they both have much evidence that points in their favor, as they both have many flaws that point against their favor. They are both theories. I for one thing believe in creationism, however it takes faith to believe either one, and that decision is purely up to you.

* We do have proof that many of the events in the Bible happened. There is proof written in Roman records by a atheist historian (lolJ) named Josephus that a man named Jesus Christ really existed, and had a strong following of people, he also goes on to say that he was crucified by the romans in about 33 B.C.E. (that means "before common era). By the way he wrote all of this before the New Testament had even been written. The first book of the New Testament that was written (Mark) was written between 65 B.C.E. and 72 B.C.E.   There is  substantial evidence that the Israelites did live in Egypt at one point, and that they were eventually enslaved ( check out  http://www.christiananswers.net/q-abr/abr-a027.html for more information)

* You say the Bible contradicts itself… lol people say that all of the time, but they can't normally find one good way it does…. So I challenge you to tell me how it contradicts itself.

* And about the pigeon thing…. that had me cracking up…. rofl… 

* What is un logical about our thinking? lol I think I have been perfectly logical in everything that I have said. I have also explained myself very clearly….  

* And to answer that last point, I will answer that question with another question, lol If your wife, who you loved very deeply and trusted with all of your heart told you that someone needed to be killed, even if you didn't agree with her, wouldn't you at least think about it, because you know that she would never ask such a horrible deed to be done without a Extraordinaaarily, extremely, justifiable reason for it. So I personally don't know…. Call me a radical, but I would at least give some serious consideration to it. 

So I want to say this to wrap things up, I am a Bible believing Christian, as you can see for yourself from this paper, however I do not just blindly believe because my family or friends do… I believe because I choose too….. The proof may not totally be there for the truth of the Bible or for Christianity, but it is my choice. If you would like to continue this argument on /r/atheism, then I would be happy too… I hope that you seriously think about everything that I have just said… lol I know that it is pretty darn long, I got kinda carried away. I think that you should seriously open your mind, and seriously think about this question : Is there a God, and how does he fit in with the world. I know that I will definitely think about and seriously consider the points that you have just raised. oh and this is pretty random, but since this is /r/teenagers , lol how old are you. 


He never answered back, lol




2012 Adam Edwards ©

My Results From The Food Drive

Hello,

As many of you know I spent most of December doing a food drive. I had originally planned to send all of the donations to the Capital Area Food Bank in Washington D.C. When I tried contacting they did not respond to any of my calls or emails (I attempted to contact them at least 4 times and they did not answer).  Since they did not answer my calls I decided to find somewhere else to donate my food. I called the church (Grace Brethren Church of Clinton) and asked if they had any idea what to do with all of the food that I had collected.  As it turned out they had begun the process of starting a food bank.  They had achieved nonprofit status with the government but had barely any food. God in his providence used me to bless the church and an unnamed number of people through your donations.  With you guys help I collected over 400 pounds of food. I would like to formally thank you for all of your donations, prayer and emotional support throughout this endeavor. Without you guys help none of this would have been possible. You have helped an unknown number of people by blessing them with food and through these donations, a person might come to know Christ.  Even though I did not win the scholarship money, it is okay because I have blessed people. It says in the bible in Mathew 25 : 34-36 Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. ³⁵ For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, ³⁶ I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’ That is my ultimate goal, not to win money for college. So if you think about it, I did win in God’s eyes.

In Christ,

Adam Yisrael Edwards
2012 Adam Edwards ©

My Acceptance To Operation Barnabus

Hello World,

Sorry I haven't been on here in like 2 months, I have had a lot going on and just have not taken the time to do much on my blog..... So now that I am back on here I will be making some major changes to this blog. The first change I will make is I will be totally changing the blog's look over the next few days because my old one just looks weird to me. The second change that I will be making to this blog is I will be posting less stories and more details of my actual life. In lieu of what I just said I have some really great news!!!!!!! Are you ready for it?

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I GOT ACCEPTED TO GO ON OPERATION BARNABAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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For those of you that don't know what that is, Operation Barnabas is a yearly 6 week missions training internship that is done by CE (Church Effectiveness) National. The purpose of it is to train young men and women to be missionaries not only to their community but to be the best that they can be with God's help. When I leave on June 18 I will head to Powell, Ohio, after I spend a week there, I will leave and spend the next 5 weeks traveling throughout Ohio, Indiana, and Kentucky, ministering and serving the Lord in however they see fit. Now as you guys can guess, of course I'm going to need money. In order to go, I need to raise $3,289 plus about $300-400 extra for transportation to and from Ohio. That's where you guys come in..... I need you guy’s prayer for me to be able to raise the money, for everything to come together, and for me to finish my 10th grade year in time to go. (Since I’m home-schooled, the year doesn't end at a specific time, instead it ends when I am finished with all of my coursework for that year.) I also need you guys financial support, to help me raise the money.If you would like more info on Operation Barnabas you can visit their website at http://www.operationbarnabas.net. If you would like to donate anything (I mean anything!!!) please email me at classicalkidz1@gmail.com.  I will give you more info on the trip and how to donate funds  from there because I don't want to put out all of my contact info on the World Wide Web.

Ta-ta for Now,

Adam Y. Edwards
2012 Adam Edwards ©